this is see you later, i'm not into goodbyes.

less than an hour after i wrote my last post, i received a phone call telling me that one of my friends, megan baldwin, had died in a car crash last night. what awful irony. megan baldwin was one of the nicest, most intellegent, gentle, beautiful, and overall wonderful people i know. she had a light that most can only wish they have. she had the most insight i have seen from a seventeen year old. everything about her was something unique and special that i will miss. today, after many of her friends heard the news, we all gathered to support each other and help each other through this difficult time. we all went around and shared memories we had of megan, and just listening to what people said about her made me realize how many lives and people she impacted. no matter how big or small, megan had an effect on people unlike anyone. she truly loved people for who they are,  just because they are people. the reality still has not set in, but when it does, i know it will hurt. i hate that i've gotten used to this feeling. four deaths in one year hurts way too much.  this time, it feels way to close to home. i'm really glad i have such a great group of people to get through this with. from this point out, i will not take my family and friends for granted. as i said, life is too short. 

but megan, i love you, darling. you've gone home. you're so special that Jesus just needed you back with Him. this is NOT goodbye, for i will see you again one day.